So my daycare is almost up and running-I had my pre-inspection today, and it went well. I'm really excited about the change this is going to bring in my life. I was so hesitant to start this daycare, and really got the ball rolling just out of sheer obedience to my husband - but since then God has shown me so many ways to further his kingdom through this. I will be forced to stick to a schedule-something I strongly dislike and is totally against my nature. But will do wonders for my children, they will learn that the world does'nt revolve around them, and so many other life skills will be taught to them through this experience.
I'm doing a bible study called "Living Beyond Yourself" by Beth Moore-it's a study on the fruit of the spirit- but I did'nt even think of learning about the Holy Spirit before learning about the fruit of them. Oh how naive I have been. I've been closely walking with the Lord now for 5 years, and I was close to the point where I felt like I was getting to know everything, that I was really getting it, and before I knew it that good old pride comes in. Oh how our loving father so wisely corrected me! Sometimes when you won't listen any other way, you have to hit rock bottom and let Him restore you to where he wants you. And if you have ever been there-(rock bottom)- then you understand where I have been for the past year or so.
But so amazing is His love for us, and how gently is He showing me all the things I've been
missing. How selfish and self-centered I have been! But Praise Him, he knows that all, he knows me better than I know myself. He know every wicked way in me, and he loves me anyways. Better yet, he works on conforming me to the image of His Son. How very blessed indeed.
I am sometimes questioned why I believe, or why I am a Christian. Better yet why do I do the things I do or live by the standards that I live? "It feels so good to serve yourself! " the world calls. But oh the peace that reigns in my soul when I spend time with Him. I could never get tired of it. "He restores my soul"(pslam 23:3) No drink, or drug, person, relationship, NOTHING can do for me what God does. Period.